Thursday, June 28, 2007
moving up a level

this week has been crazily busy with work. i went back at 430 on wed morning, and came into the office at 2pm. didn't get to sleep well. my mind was occupied with linking the different principles and concepts of my proj. i was half sleeping half thinking between 530 to 9. i don't know how i did that, somehow, i just did it. i only went back to sleep at 10 and woke up at 11. my mind was 'soaked' with all the stuff i learnt the whole nite. wed, which was yest, i stayed again till nearly 1am. tiredness really set in then. today i came in at the normal working time, 830. well, nearly 9 in actual fact. =) and right now, i'm just stealing some time off this crazy schedule of mine to blog, just so that i rem that i did wat i did.

working hrs aside, i guess i really moved up to a different level in terms of the expections i have of myself. i really learnt. i rem i was whining to wf (my darling) on wed morn. i was tired. i felt disappointed. i felt lousy. i found it hard. but today, i see things from a different perspective in my work. i know what project i'm actually involved in now. i feel that i've moved up the ladder by a tiny step. i spent the whole of today, figuring out all the concepts and how they're linked or related to the next step and so on. at the end of the afternoon, i was tired, felt so drained. but i was happily drained cos i've moved on. n i'm glad that it happened. i'm expecting to stay till late tonight. cos i think my discussion is not going to start till 11pm (the earliest).

it's really a challenge to stay awake at night, what makes it more challenging, is the ability of the brain to work WELL. when i think back now, i realised i've done it on wed night, from 9pm to 4:30am. i didn't know how i did it. i would normally have switched off. =) i'm proud of myself for that.

but i think most importantly, i've someone who's always beside me mentally, spiritually and i'm very thankful and appreciative of all his gestures. =) consoling me when i'm down, and cheering me on when the tough gets going.

take for instance last nite, he came n pick me up at my colleague's place w the little waggie in the car. i felt so happy and relieved. relieved from all the stress i've brought from work.

my life's dedicated to work for now. =)