Monday, June 04, 2007
bad-tempered-ness

i realised i don't know how to give relevant n good titles! haha! it's time i should admit something. oh well, i'm beginning to feel that i can't control my temper, my emotions. i'm losing that grip, n it's worrying! i used to tell myself that i have to control my temper lest it controls me! but i think the latter's happening now. it's time i should shake myself up!

i know i've not been the nicest i can be. i know i've become a mean girl. i know i've made pple, especially the darling of mine become less intolerable of me. (tho his tolerance level is way above average) i know i've been bad. i'm sorry. i used to think that controlling laughter was the hardest thing ever!. i think otherwise now. i think my bad-temperedness is the hardest to control thing now! such is the irony of life. how? i don't know how to psycho myself to change, or to control myself during the necessary times. but somehow, don't know how, i know i have to. i know i have to untwine this temper of mine. it has been slowly, steadily entwining around me, n i hate it. much as i feel apologetic, the best way out now is to show the change in me. the change in attitude (temper) would triumph over 100 sorrys, isn't it? action still speak louder than words.

implementation(s): first and foremost, i need to take out that determination n perseverance in me! we'll see! i hope to see success. n i hope that in time to come, very soon, i can smell success.