Thursday, September 27, 2007
ktv + jumbo w my colleagues....

these are photos of my colleagues n boss... we had a day out on 8th august, to ktv (kbox) n then walked to jumbo seafood.

heh. i know they're taken very long ago...

had no time to blog, needless to say, load photos.. lol.


all of us!!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007
reminiscing..

it's one of those quiet moments that i'm having. it's been a long time since i last have my own quiet moment. actually, the last time i'm feeling like this was in Leeds. i'm not sure if it's a sense of loneliness. probably, too many quiet moments cause loneliness.

was browsing through all my pictures taken during the europe trip, from driving around in france to visiting all sorts of places in europe. it was really a very unforgettable experience, all preciously kept in my memory. as i was browsing, memories flood in my mind. the loneliness with company. oxymoron noted. it's a though with friends around, a part of me is filled with loneliness, emptiness etc.

i had so many trips during my study, be it around England, or northern and southern wales, scotland, and even europe. i realised i've been to many places.

and all these, from learning to adapt in a foreign land alone, to learning to be independent, to cooking and and the list goes on... someone has been there, not physically, yet 'there'.
i remember how much tears i shed when i was there the first few days. the feeling is indescribable. i called him, crying, sobbing when i woke up just before midnite, and in the wee hours in the morning. i made him worried, so worried that he was close to coming to visit me. to waiting patiently for my degree.

what a darling he has been. such a dearie. but yet, i am so annoyed with him that i don't even understand myself. am i selfish? after all that he's done, so much more than what i've typed, i can't even control my anger. sometimes, i feel very upset becos i'm angry and yet i can't convince myself to get out of the anger. why? i don't know. is human brain so complicated?

i'm not sure when he'll see this blog of mine. but i'd like to blog this feeling down, so that it is kept somewhere, and at the same time, to pour out my frustrations. the frustration of wanting to be un-angry when i'm angry. the frustration of giving in after all he's done and gave me.

this noble 'him' is none other than my dearie, LEE WENFENG.


a very truthful blog of mine.........

Wednesday, September 19, 2007
when times are down...

after being on 1 day mc on mon and 1 day leave yest, i came to work today with my worst fear. py talked to me and i felt so sad and demoralised. den my boss initiated a talking session at bout 5pm and her words are just so reassuring that i felt more at ease. that almost-bursting-into-tears feeling was healed by her words. i love my boss. i wana do well n live up to her expectations, but i'm stuck by my lack of confidence. gawd noes why.

1 month to prove to myself. i can do it!


life is full of choices.

it's the choices u make that makes who you are.

it's a gift to forgive. let go and one will be a happier person.

be confident! give your best shot!

i wana learn to take things in my stride.


words of encouragements are easy to type.

to put those in action is a challenge!